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Sat Dec 17, 2011, 1:05 AM
You know...

Over the past several months, I've gone from the happiest I've ever been to the lowest point in my life to date and back to an uneasy truce between the two.

Sometimes I wake up still dreaming. Sometimes I go to sleep crying. Sometimes I smile at a fond memory. Sometimes I grieve at a cruel joke. Sometimes I look forwards to the future. Sometimes I envy the past. Sometimes I regret my choices. Sometimes I marvel at my progress.

And through it all... I thank life for the privilege it gives me to be ME.

No matter what, I am lucky to be alive. I am lucky to be who I am. I am so thankful to have the option to change my own life and have control of my own destiny. I accept responsibility of my own actions and my own feelings. I accept responsibility for the stupid things I've done. And the stupid things I will yet do.

I am honest. I am bold. I am beautiful inside.
I am rash. I am proud. I am beautiful outside.

I am my own most amazing person.
And my own greatest critic.

I am so lucky to be me.

Thank you life. Thank you for letting me live. I promise you, I will live to the fullest extent of my ability. Thanks.

  • Listening to: My thoughts
  • Watching: Myself
  • Drinking: Water
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MaryWesker Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Now this is what I like to see! You're a strong person and have that and many other reasons to be proud of yourself! Don't ever change that way of thinking; and know that you're an amazing individual. AND! Know that for every one person who has mistreated you there's ten more who love you and are proud to call you their friend. Keep up this positive way of thinking! :tighthug:
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DugFinn Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks. ^ ^

Although I sadly don't know you too well, I've always been so happy to see your posts. I feel like through reading your stories and posts, I've gotten to know a deep part of you and it has made me grow very fond of you, heh.

Thank you so much for being who you are. You always brighten my day when I see your name. ^ ~
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MaryWesker Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome hon! :heart:

Ha, there's not too much to me so you probably do know me very well through posts and stories. :XD: AW! Someone's fond of me! :squee:

Ah, tis what I do. I'm supportive. ^_^ I'm glad I was able to bring a little sunshine to your day! I'll continue to try to do so. :hug:
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DugFinn Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
^ ^ <3
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DarkTonic Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
DugFinn your a good person and i'm glad your still alive. Keep going strong and you'll make it through anything and everything. Be who you are keep being you and You'll survive after all you are a survivor. DO WHAT YOU DO. If you ever need to talk i'm here or on facebook you know who i am. I'll always be here to talk to.
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DugFinn Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you so much!
I'm always surprised by the kind words and hearts of people. I guess after dealing with "friends" that I seemingly have to beg to hang out with and to get them to talk to me, it's just surprising that there are others out there like me that just want to be friends because they are good people and honestly just enjoy being together. It's so wonderful that the internet has given us the chance to meet people like that which in real life we otherwise never would have know about each other, you know.
I just want to tell you that my heart fills with happiness at your kind words. Thank you so much. ^ ^ It really means a lot to me.
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DarkTonic Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
no problem :) i try to be a good person and friend.
TRUTH!: once i learned you were on Facebook i got really excited and kept trying to find something to say to you that i would get a response out of. But i soon realized your not a youtube star your a good friend, normal person, Good photographer (and actor), And just a good and nice person all together.
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DugFinn Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Heh, thank you. ^ ^ (I assure you, I'm blushing right now, heh.)

I find that pretty awesome too about "famous" people I meet too. Surprisingly, most times, they're just down to earth good ol' folk that are totally cool with chilling and talking. All it takes is a "Yoh!" and it's all groovy after that, heh. :)
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DarkTonic Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Lol i learned that pretty quickly.
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Ex-Shadow Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2011  Professional General Artist
Your Journals are always so poetic! Even when you were going through tough times your journals were very artistically worded. Its good to feel that your life is yours to life and change as you please, never stop appreciating your freedom of choice :nod:
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DugFinn Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you! Heh, I hadn't even really noticed that about my Journals till you pointed it out. I actually just went back a re-read a few and noticed, "Oh, wow. He's right!" Heh. I just write from my heart and let my mind speak freely. XD Guess I have a poetic heart, heh.
Thank you for the comment. It's been a long time since I felt myself feeling this at peace. Like, I accept the present, look forwards to the future and have decided to let the past go. It's wonderful to finally feel that way again. I wish everyone could always feel that way. Granted, I still feel a little sad every now and then, but, all in all, I am so thankful to life and the freedom I have to live it to its fullest.

That's what we gotta do! *high five!* Gotta believe *cough*in the heart of the cards*cough*. XD
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Ex-Shadow Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2011  Professional General Artist
lol nicely put! And you're right to think that way. The only way to be happy is to move on from any past problems and enjoy what you do have and what you have to look forward to :nod:

So do you have any costume plans in progress for 2012 yet? Malinda and I are getting to work on some dream costumes of ours, and we're hoping to have them done sometime in the spring
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DugFinn Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm also going to use 2012 to try and get my dream cosplays done. I'm hoping to have Samus Aran's power suit and MGS2 Raiden before summer, and Saint Seiya Shun God Cloth before the end of the year.

And if dreams come true, heh, my giant Snorlax cosplay before June - so that I may blockade the halls of Akon until some one wakes me up! Oh-hohoho! >;D

What dream outfits are you two gumdrops of awesome hoping to get done this year? ^ ^
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Ex-Shadow Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2011  Professional General Artist
Wow, those sound pretty epic! And Snorlax especially has me excited :D

Malinda's working on Twilight Princess Link, and she's even been making the chain mail from scratch for it. It's coming along pretty well so far and she'll probably have it finished in another month or two. I'm about to start working on a Covenant Elite Field Marshal from Halo Reach. I'm super excited to tackle it, the stilts and head, as well as the details will be a great challenge, and I want this one to be spot on. Here's a link to what it looks like: [link] and if you have any ideas or advice on it feel free to let me know! I'm going to try to get working on it this next week.
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DugFinn Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
Oh man, that's gonna be awesome! Eee! Can't wait to see those outfits! I honestly can't even begin to imagine how beautiful they're gonna turn out knowing both of ya'll. :D

Actually.... I'm sending you a note. It's got some top secret info in it. We (Evil Pastry Studios) were going to contact you and Malinda about this in Jan, but I'll just give you a preview of the info... Ya'll might be interested...
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